I chased this boy because I thought it was fun, then got burned and it was not fun. (no details, no sex... just embarrassment.) I don't even know what possessed me to do it, I didn't want to date him, really I just wanted to control him somehow... In some sick twisted way. Even if I was not sexually attracted to him, I just needed that control. And now that man has won over me. I hate that. I solely dislike him now, but gosh, he looks like the only man that I have ever laid eyes on that looks so good... I want to keep playing with his heart for my entertainment. For some fun... Possibly out of boredom after the loss of my bestfriend... who in fact was a girl. How the heck do I fix this? :/
please don't intentionally hurt another person, no matter the reason. you will hurt yourself as well in the process. I guess I would have to agree with Andrew99: Therapy! Good luck with that.
