So, basically I went to see a new therapist today, and when he asked me about sexual orientation I just saw an opportunity to slowly start the coming-out-phase. It's the closest I've ever come to talking about this with anyone (except here). But still I don't really feel anything. I was expecting to feel some kind of relief or... I dunno, anything, but I feel no different. Anyone else have this experience?
That's exactly why I went to a therapist in the first place. I told mine that I enjoy being with women sexually and have no interest in my husband sexually. I'm still looking for someone to say, "Yes, you are a lesbian", and I keep telling myself that, but I haven't felt that huge rush of relief yet. I think the closest thing I came to was yesterday when I was with the other woman and we were in an intimate moment and I had a conscious realization that this is what I want. Still, no bells and whistles, just more of acceptance. I don't think there's a specific time period as to when it happens because clearly I'm brand new to this as well.
