How to come out as transgender?

It was very difficult to come out as gay, but now I'm not very sure if I still can be labelled as such

Being honest about the duality of my gender (which is much more feminine than masculine) is almost like a second coming out. I have shared my crossdressing picture with some relatives and friends to ask for some feedback and the response was universally positive

However, I still can't come out with much closer people, like my mom, my dad, my sisters, my nephew, my niece and most of all, my grandparents (it sounds terrible but I will probably wait until they either die or I stop living in their home until I fully come out). And let's not talk about coming out to the entire world

I've been picturing myself living my life as a transgender woman but I lack of the courage that is needed to make it happen. I lack of confidence and I don't want people to break me down again, so I will wait until I accomplish something in life, like getting a master degree or becoming very good at singing which is my passion but I still can't do many things with my voice (I don't want to transition with hormones because I don't want to loose my tenor voice). That way, even if the entire world turn its back against me I will no longer care, since I will have something that is mine and mine alone

I feel very depressed because I'm still no Luciano Pavarotti and I can't live the way I want to live. Oh yeah, and my romantic life sucks, too. But I will carry on, don't worry

I decided that I won't try to kill myself until I discover what happiness is like, at least once in my life

 

thanks ^_^