Um...hey I'm a closeted lesbian in a very conservative family ─ they think that being gay is just somehow ending up wired wrong and it can be fixed, like a wire in a machine out of place. I'm often thinking of the future, how I don't want to lose my family but I want to end up someday married, with a wife and a family of my own. I don't want to hide myself. The thought of being with a man like that makes me uncomfortable. I just want to know how I should come out and what I should do and if they kick me out what resources I can have to stay safe. I'm just so scared and in need of some help and friends. (*hug*)
Whatever you do, don't rush yourself to come out! To tell the world your feelings is the very last thing you would ever want to regret. I don't know exactly if it's easy for you to get to one, but if you can find an LGBT support group, you'll make lots of connections and find loads of resources. I hope you find what you need to make your life better!!
I'm very sorry to hear about your situation I think Onyx Wolf is right about not rushing, come out only when you feel comfortable to (and hopefully won't be putting yourself at risk). I did a quick google search for lgbt resources in Orlando and there seems to be quite a few, might be worth checking them out (shame I can't post links here). If you need anyone to talk to, or vent at, I'd be more than glad to act as an e-punching bag.(*hug*)
Feel your pain. When you're ready and feel comfortable enough, maybe come out to a close friend. That's how it was for me, I came out to my close friends and they're fine with it. As for family, once I moved out of home I learned this wonderful term called "fuck it." and figured once they find out, they find out. Becoming independent of yourself completely can really help and just help you start over a new leaf and be the person YOU want to be.
@Onyx: thank you I definitely don't think I'm ready to come out yet but it's really hard being stuck in a closet. /: @Ix J: Thank you! I will have to google them and find out. Hopefully some will be of help! @Moon: Thank you for the advice. Just having people to talk openly about this is helping, since I don't really have anyone around me in person to speak of these things with. I will be meeting someone in the summer who has no problem with homosexuality, so I'm planning on coming out to her.