My birthday is at the end of May my goal is to come out by then that will be the best gift I can give myself
Great hun! I really hope that you'll go through with it! You will probably literally feel the stress leave you when you do it, even if you didn't think it was that taxing on you to have it inside you all this time. That's how I feel every time I just subtly let another of my friends know. Best of luck to you, lovie! ^v^
Make yourself some kind of timetable with some intermediate goals to reach, so you can measure your progress. Perhaps going to some support group meetings, gay bars, buy some "gay" accessories, T-shirts, etc. so you can see yourself on the path to getting it done. A "deadline" that can be avoided until the last day often does not hold when that day arrives.