I hate Odessa Texas I'm so miserable I miss living in Austin I was so much happier.. God I want to leave, and live someplace north. Everyday I wake up in hell, back in the town I was abused in. I hate my family for convincing my mom to move back to this place!!! I've been through so much, as soon as my grades turned bad. Everybody used me as an excuse to move back here. And now that we're back in Odessa I HAVE to make good grades. And I am, but after everyday I just want to curl up in bed and die. But I can't, because I have to be strong for my mom. Because we live with a crazy backwards woman, who at the sight of anything out of place she throws a fit; my grandmother. And her retarded Man child who isn't even related to me. Everyday I have to go to school, and fake a smile. Everyday I have to come home and fake a smile. I'm so alone. I just don't know how long I can keep this up... Everyday, I look for somebody to save me, a miracle, large amounts of money. I once saw an episode of Oprah were this woman found 1,000,000 dollars in a trash can, and didn't have to live on the streets anymore. I've been through so much. And everyday I have to watch my mother brake down into tears. I just hope my luck turns around one day... I'm sure nobody cares, and I don't care if you don't. I just had to get this out of my system, if I didn't I would blow up. Into a thousand itsy-bitsy little pieces. Tomorrow is going to be so awkward. 4 people who hate each other. All at one table. Eating each others cooking. Who knows, maybe we might all break into song and dance and everything will fix itself. (&&&) [Yeah, and maybe the kool-aid man will burst through the wall with a giant bag of skittles]:bang:
I can't imagine how much that must suck, it sounds awful. Theres not really a lot i can say, i hope your situation gets better. It sounds soul-crushing. i cringe whenever i hear about the south of america, it all sounds so medieval in its views on homosexuality... scares me. if its any consollation, I bet that quite a few people will read this, and whether they comment or not, they wish better times on you. I hope things get better for you. *hugs*
There could always be worse.. You could be living in Temple, Texas. I've got a friend from there and she says that the violence/sluttyness is horrible. [huggles] Hopefully things will sort themselves out soon, however some will need some intervention when you're ready.
That sounds really awful man. I know it feels like you're alone right now, but you're not. There are loads of people on this site who do care, alot. Loads of us have been in similar situations. I know saying this doesn't really make you feel any better. But, there will be a light at the end of this tunnel, even if you can't see it right now. We're all here for you if you ever want to talk. Good luck man, we're all pulling for you.
Hi there. I'm sorry you're in such a crappy situation. It sounds like your mom needed to move back in with her mom for a reason. So I'm sure it's tough on her, and she'd rather be somewhere else too. Try to make the best of it. But don't feel that you have to keep things bottled up for your mom's sake. She's probably stronger than you think, and she'd probably want to know that you're not happy. Between the two of you perhaps you could work on making each other happier. Is there any chance that you could find some counselling where you are? At school? At a local health clinic? It sounds like you'd benefit from talking to someone in person about all this stuff. Good luck!
omg you live in odessa! i used to live there it sucks huh?? do you go to permian>>?? man i know how you feel sorta except for the family part, which i guess is the main part, but yeah. odessa isnt the most accepting place ((((()