I am a 17 year-old teen living in the heart of Atlanta, GA. With a slim stature and an androgynous aura, I've physically been a fairly attractive female all of my life. I admit that in the past, I liked to admire the human body, whether it be a girl or a guy. However, I had an epiphany while I was in my Analysis class last year during my junior year in high school: I was not meant to be a girl in the physical sense! That led me to conclude that I was a transgender in a more basic sense without the need for gender reassignment surgery, but I'll explain that later. I thought it ended there, but I knew that I was and am, definitely attracted to guys and not girls. So being a guy in the body of a girl who was attracted to men made me fit into another group, gay. And I would have opted for the gender reassignment procedure if I weren't so easy for me to find a boyfriend as a "female". I am mostly comfortable in this body although I would prefer the breasts and some other features to go M.I.A. I let my partners know and they understand completely that I am a guy. Others might say that I am confused and maybe I am. All I can say is that I am an exception. I don't have a label for myself. Being a "gay transgender" might explain it a bit, but it doesn't matter. I know who I am. I write to know if anyone understands, if anyone can relate.
Hi there - and welcome to EC. I can't really relate to what you're feeling, but what I can say is that I'm happy for you that you've realized these things about you at such an early age. I didn't figure out why I felt so out of place until I was in my mid 30s! So again, welcome to EC from Jim in Toronto!
Welcome to EC! You do have a label for yourself - Napalm Kitty. You are what you are. It may take more words to explain than "gay" or "straight", but if you know what you are, that's all that matters. Lex
I think it's great that you have figured out who you are. It's good that you don't worry so much about labelling yourself as one thing or another. And I can understand where you're coming from as well. I saw a programme with a man who felt he was a lesbian, and had gender reassignment surgery. Neither sexuality or gender have to be concrete, and that's what confuses a lot of people when trying to figure out their own sexuality. It's great you have figured this out for yourself. And welcome to EC
