So, recently I have begun to accept my gender identity as Transfeminine, and really feel comfortable with the title. So much that I'm now currently seeing a local gender therapist to discuss moving forward with my life on this, and to help guide me through transitioning. I would be a lot less anxious about this step, but the biggest issue is that I'm still living with my parents, and I'm using their insurance to pay for my sessions. Though my parents, and everyone else in my family, are very accepting, open-minded people who are supportive of LGBTQ rights, I'm feeling a bit scared about telling them I'm genderqueer. I'm not sure why I'm feeling so panicky about it, but I have always felt like I struggled with deeply expressing my feelings to people in person, especially when those feelings are incredibly personal and take more than simple words to explain. And I already know for a fact that they know very little about non-binary genders, so I feel like it's going to be even harder. My mom also works from home and I'm still living with them. That being said, I haven't even told her that I'm seeing a therapist; I was very fortunate to come up with an excuse for leaving the house to go to my consultation appointment. But my second appointment is coming up within a few days, and I don't know if I can continue coming up with excuses to randomly leave the house without her, or anyone else, knowing. And since I'm paying with their insurance, I know that they are going to figure it out eventually, one way or the other. I originally wanted to come out to them through a letter, explaining all of my feelings and what it means to be non-binary; I feel like that way, I could've said everything I needed to and give them time to process before we actually talked. Problem is I never got a chance to writing it because I struggled with how to even begin and I was just too nervous about everything. So, I guess to cut my ramble short, does anybody have experience with this kind of situation? Did you come out through a letter or in person? What did you say? How did your audience react? How did you explain non-binary gender in a way they could understand?
I'm really sorry! I have no experience with all of those things you said in the end, but, I just want you to know that I think your family will try their best to understand and keep up with your gender. Also I think it's still normal that you feel anxious! By the sound of it, your family cares about you, and they love you for who you are.