I need help! Im a 15 year old male and I think I'm gay. Im excited about this because I'm really embracing this whole new side of me (what I've used to deny) and its an exhilarating time figuring myself out right now. I really want to tell my sister but I do not know what to tell her. I don't know if I am gay or bisexual. I feel like I am gay but a part of me is scared of this change or is in denial and I am clinging onto being a bisexual because maybe I'll be accepted more or something. I know labels do not matter but it's driving me crazy and I need to know what I am. To all you out there, how did you figure this out. How did you know whether you are bi or gay. Any help is welcome. When I am horny or excited which is 90% of my day, I know I am gay but after I "finish" masturbaiting (watching gay porn or fantasizing about men) I start think about my sexuality and start to feel a little fear and confusion. I know I am definitely not straight, I am pretty sure I am gay, but I do not know if maybe I am a little bi. I think im holding onto bi because it is like a "bridge" to accepting being fully gay, or something. I really need to know how you figured this out. To give myself a test I watched straight people porn for five minutes and was barely turned on and the second I changed to gay porn which I have been watching since I was 13, I was super turned on. I know this is foolproof evidence that I am fully gay but I DONT KNOW why I am still holding onto this bisexuality. Since I was 13 i denied I was gay and I told myself that i am straight (even through i always watched gay porn). When I turned 15 i finally accepted that I am gay. I also considered that i may not have fully accepted being gay so instead im saying bi because its closer to straight, but its not the case because i think im fine with being gay and really embraced it. I know i am gay but why do I keep having this nagging feeling holding me back from telling my family (being honest with them is something i really want to do). PLEASE HELP ME AND EXPLAIN WHY MY STUPID BRAIN IS SCARING ME FOR NO REASON. Thank you in advance for the help , love you all
From what i can tell is sounds like you might be gay. I'm also wondering, however i came to a conclusion i'm gay bi-romantic meaning i could never really go all the way with a female and enjoy it. It would be helpful to know what you're school crushes were. Or if you fantasized of women at all. By the way you're not alone on doubting your sexuality we all do it some more than others. It usually happens after you feel guilty, at least for me. Especially only just recently you accepted yourself for who you are. Congrats, and i hoped i helped a little! (*hug*)
I think that you have a feeling that you don't want to tell your family because it's hard to do. For anyone it's hard to come out to their family. You really should come out to your family one by one, you can't really come out to everyone at the same time. I have only come out to my mother and my step-brother and they have both been supportive to me. Also, think about who you want to tell. Is anyone in your family homophobic? Would they be supportive? Also, it doesn't seem as if being bisexual is a bridge to being gay, it seems as if you say your bisexual because you have a problem with being gay and although you might say you don't have a problem with it, you might have a problem with it that you don't know.
