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Don't wanna be judged... I guess

Discussion in 'Coming Out Advice' started by Bi2les, Sep 2, 2015.

  1. Bi2les

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    Hi my name is bi2les...
    Well my name says it all basically
    I'm 24 female starting in middle school going into HS I started noticing myself looking at other women whether it was butt breast or just her exquisite shape..
    At first I just thought " hey ALL females look at other females are to compare, your not GAY.."
    I've told this to myself many a times, one day idk I must have drifted off into a beautiful ass lol cause one of my male friends yelled out " hey hey are u looking at her ass?!" I quickly snapped out and said " ew no that's gay." But we both knew what I was doing...

    Well after HS I convinced myself " u are Bi u get excited over women just as u do men" so I acted on it still feeling confused I dated women kisses sex etc..
    I LOVED THE FEELING it was great
    Then I moved w. My gparents I had to fake it to make it.
    My family does not approve. So since then I've dated men, but always talked to or hung out w. Lesbians bt that's all.

    Now sept 2nd 2015 I have been w. A man but the womaly cravings are stronger than ever, from 3 yrs of looking at women and watching lesbian porn, I KNOW now that I am lesbian I don't even like having sex w. My bf anymore if I do I picture him as a butch stud.
    I want to be a stud now I guess but I don't want my friends or family to think I'm following a TREND or being confused....
    PLEASE HELP !!!
     
  2. JB2015

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    I'm sorry that they have put you through all of this trauma!! (Hug)

    They are confused, you're not!

    It's sounds like you have very real and valid concerns about talking to them.

    Do you think they would be open to PFLAG?

    They have a chapter in Houston.
     
    #2 JB2015, Sep 2, 2015
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