It's a little pathetic till my twenty's birthday , still haven't had sex with girls, only some oral , didn't make it cuz she refused to do so in fear of virginity . And several days later I asked a random guy on internet to my single house , and I had sex with him being bottom . I was actually enjoyed that night though after that night I got several days of diarrea and a little infection , cuz the lost of condom during having sex with light turned off. After around 80 days , I got my blood tested , it turned out to be okay . Since then I never touch any guys or girls till now . But sometimes , I still find gay porns attractive , and would like to have someone or something in my ass , the feeling of under control of a stronger guy .Yet I've never been mentally attracted to any guy and never paid attention to guys passing by even they are perfect . And I am sometimes aroused by hetero porn , sometimes by homo porn , may happen at the same period . Thinking of the night i spent with that girl , I really want to have sex with girls and go further to relationship as a normal guy . So it's kinda tricky ,that I want all sex except for fking with a guy as top (feeling disgusted ), and I want only love from girls .Could anyone tell me if I am a gay or bi or just a horny single boy. cuz sex is just something chemical biology , if theres no mentally attraction to guys ,I really don't feel like accepting to be a gay and come out .
