....that I came out for the first time. I had been thinking about it for weeks and the anxiety and tension was building. I wanted to do it. I had to do it. And I was nervous. I did contact a friend I trusted.....and I told her. I thought my head would explode after I said to her "...I am gay". She was very understanding and that certainly helped. It did catch her off guard though. But once you say it, you can never take it back or deny it to that person so it was a heavy moment for me. I spent the next 48 hours wondering if I made a mistake but then calmed down and felt more at peace. I was out....not to the world of course, but to someone who knew me. Over the past few years I have come out to others as well - slowly, selectively but steadily. What I have learned is that yes, it was and is worth it to be known as gay and to embrace your sexuality. Never deny who you are but there is also no hurry on being out or completely out and not everyone on the planet needs to know either.
