I never thought anything about my own sexuality until I was in middle school. I started actually noticing that I really liked boys, and I couldn't date girls longer than a week or more. I talked to a friend about being bisexual but I never really entertained the idea. I haven't watched anything other than gay porn for I don't know how long and I've really questioned my own sexuality hardcore for almost 3 years now. I dated girls exclusively but had secret one time hookups (not full-on sex) just enough times to count them on two hands(or less.) Jeffrey Star told Alyssa Edwards something about how he doesn't mind fooling around with girls but he's gay and likes men and identifies as a gay man. That's how I feel but I get confused because I've been with women, who are nice, but I don't think I ever thought of them as more than acquaintances or friends (with benefits.) Even in a long term setting(1-2 years.) I don't feel bisexual. I'm not "obviously" gay by any degree, and being okay with fooling around with women doesn't help the case that I am gay regardless of not knowing from the time I was 5. Am I overthinking this? I feel so alone. I can't talk about this to anyone I actually know. It's obvious they don't take me seriously. Help :bang:
Hey, I know what you mean, it can be really confusing at times. Its not a black and white clear cut thing, its a spectrum and can change. I'm definitely not straight, and definitely not gay, I've found myself between being 50/50 bi and straight, so maybe 75/25 straight. I dated girls, often with spectacularly bad outcomes for many years, until I met my BF and later broke up/he dumbed me. Well if you would like to chat feel free to PM me
Like Pi Fermat said, your sexual orientation is a spectrum and it can change. It probably won't stay the same for all your life. There might be some period of times where you're more into guys or more into girls. Pretty sure everyone deals with that, cause nobody is 100% gay or 100% straight. It's okay if you don't know what you are yet, you aren't alone in this. For me, I don't know what I am, I thought at first I was bi, then pan, then gay and now I just feel so tired of trying to label myself xD I'm not interested in anyone for the moment, and I'm trying to stay this way until I'm older cause I know I've developed a dependence on love, which isn't good at all (or more like, too much infatuation?). Anyways, we're all looking for love, look into the person's soul not the person's appearance. When I used to consider myself as lesbian, I flirted with guys anyways, but that didn't necessarily mean I was bi. It's up to you, and only you, to choose how you want to label yourself. I wish you good luck! ^^
