I'm finally "in the closet". I need to figure out my future...

Oh hun~It's not different at all. It's rather quite the contrary! It's exactly the same! ^_^ A relationship is just that, a relationship. You can have a future with the partner the same as all those other couples you see around you.

Don't label if you don't feel the need! What's in a label anyway? They are over rated. Just love, why can't that be a label? I only say I am gay, because most don't understand what I mean. Same with religion, I say Wiccan/Pagan but neither is true. That is an entirely different subject for another time. Back to the topic... I have never successfully been with a woman. But, that does't change the fact that I was 'in' love with a few girls. I even thought and fantasized about them.

I know you are thinking that makes me bi. Not necessarily. Because, I couldn't act on it. But, with men. I have been emotionally, physically, sexually, and irrevocably in love with some men. All levels. Hence, why I say Gay. It doesn't mean that I think about girls or even fantasize about them. Because currently I don't. For me it's whomever strikes my fancy. Today it could be the hot guy at Wal-Mart, tomorrow the guy I saw walking across the street, one of my friends, and the next day it could be a woman. ~_^ That is why I can't say I have a type. Like twink, bear, etc...

The guy at Wal-Mart could have been muscular, the guy walking could have some fluff, and my friend could have a twink like figure. My type, it encompasses all types. Same with my exes. Size, weight, height... They have been as different as the sun and the moon.

I'm not sure of your entire situation. But, don't freight and worry about the small stuff. You'll know when and how you fit much easier than you think if you let go of how it's perceived you should be.

 

You know... That is not necessarily true. Have you thought about a surrogate? I know it wouldn't 'both' of you involved creating the life. But, you could still have a surrogate have your baby or his... Have 2 that he and you can both have a child! I know surrogates can be expensive or hard to find. But, I have a few friends that offered. So, that is something to think about. Children can still be in your future... A family can still be in your future. As well as... Your balls can still create life! :icon_wink