Alright, I've been thinking on "coming out" for a long time. I'm scared that I'll regret coming out though. I want to come out as "FTM" but I don't want to end up somehow becoming "cis" later down the road. Also, with my family I feel as if the only way I'll be taken seriously is I have to start T otherwise I won't be "male" in my family's eyes. I suffer from very low self-esteem too so that makes it even more tough. :/ I fear taking T because of regret. And I don't want my top dysphoria to get worse while being on T because my body will take on more of a male shape and well.. u get what I mean. I get top dysphoria but not too often but I feel like it might get worse if I'm on T. All in all, I'm frustrated because I'm not confident enough to say "I'm 100% FTM" to my family. Some days I think I'll only be happy if I get on T but I don't want T and there's a lot of the problem too. I just... deal with it. -Shrugs- What do you guys think?
