Feeling depressed after coming out, maybe turn things around?

Hello the people of EC, it has been a long time since I entered the site,
So I will keep things as simple as possible. On friday, I got wasted drunk, which is veey irrespomsible for my age I know, and I came out to my cousin who is one year younger than me. He is the first person I told this and at this point I was not wasted and was only drunk so I remember the conversation and everything we talked. And the problem is not him not accepting me the problem is that I am just not ready to come out yet. Saturday and today was me being very depressive and I cant even get hungry (which means I am awful because oh boy.. i eat). So I found a way that will temprorarily avoid the problem, I can just mention him that I dont remember a thing from that evening and only vaguely remember what he told me in the metro (where we only talled about what I did when I was drunk) also I can say I only remember bits of the rest leaving all talks on me being gay off. I would basically lie and would not still avoid the fact that I came out to him, but at least he may not tell me that I told him and he can think he will keep it as "secret". I hope it is clear, the question is: Should I? Please enlighten me my favorite lgbt community, love y'all

 

But what if he does say something, theres no way to turn things around this time, since he will say that he knows, which means I will have to talk. If I open up the conversation, at least I can clearly say I dont remember anything and I dont wanna know what we talked about, leaving him no choice but to not talk about the night.
And oh yes, I will never ever drink that much again, I mean EVER.

---------- Post added 14th Jun 2016 at 06:25 AM ----------

Yes that seems reasonable, I will do this if he brings up the things I said before I bring it up.