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one of my worst days ='/

Discussion in 'Coming Out Advice' started by Sarah, Mar 4, 2009.

  1. Sarah

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    I've felt horrible all day. Everything is bad news. I just don't want to handle it right now. I don't want to be here. I'm tired of feeling like crap and I'm just tired of feeling. I've wanted to cry my eyes out all day. I've been so close to just breaking down and crumbling. I don't know what to do. All I want right now is to be safe and have no pain. All I want is to not hurt. I don't really want to admitt it but today I've contemplated just ending it here and now. I know that doesn't solve anything and it just ends up hurting a bunch more people. So I promise that won't happen. But I want everything to end so badly
     
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    (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) Sarah things WILL get better, I have felt like that alot this week. Be strong, and know that we are all here for you!
     
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    i hate cyring but i cant help it. :tears: y do we cry when we're sad?
     
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    dont let it get to you. thats the trick. fuck the world and everyone(bad) in it. all that matters is that, like bryan said, u stay strong and love yourself. dont worry about what other ppl do or say. we love u. i love u and i dont even know u.
     
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    i dont know how to love myself
     
  6. tazz

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    Sarah it's just temporary, I promise you. All these brick walls we face will just make us stronger
     
  7. Alex19

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    its not too hard. just learn to accept yourself and others will follow. it may not be the quickest or easiest of processes, but it works. thats what i did.
     
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    how
     
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    Well to make myself love myself at least temporarily I think about all the good things about myself, or at least pretend I love myself for that moment. Just forgive yourself of flaws and move on. Music helps me to LOL these may be steriotypcal music but I don't care

    Shania twain- up!
    Forgiveness-ayumi hamasaki (don't ask why but this singer can transcend languages)
    Holiday-madonna (can't get more sterotypical than that)
    Enya stuff
    Keep trying- utada

    I don't listen to this stuff but I do rarely
     
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    sarah i go though life not liking myself and i go though day i wish i didn't have to but i think of it this way hurting myself is not going to change how i feel it only takes care of it for awhile im 31 and i wish i could change my life but i cant so insted of letting people tell me how to feel i just say i will have a good day i will love myself i will i willl i will and thats how i do it i hope this helps you some, know that you are loved here at EC and we will do our best to help you. Good luck
     
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    i dont think ihate myself i just dont LOVE myself
     
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    i'll give you big hug tomorrow. will that help? :]
     
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    L= probably
     
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    you guys are all great :slight_smile: i feel better. i hope tomorrow will be good.......
     
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    *huggles Sarah*
     
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    huggles are nice :slight_smile:
     
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    Please don't hurt your self.

    It is ok to have bad days and to feel like crying. I found that when I have a really crappy day that sometimes is best to just let myself feel sad and to cry. Yes I am manly enough to admit that. The way I see it is that sad thoughts are no fun so why keep them, let them out so you can get to the good stuff.
     
  19. The Enigma

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    It happens. We all have bad days. Why don't you explain why today was so terrible? :slight_smile:
     
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    u will be fine sarah feeling sad is just temperary and eventually happiness follows remember we all love you and you can vent to us anytime you want. Feel free to send me a message if you ever want to talk no matter what it about *hugs*