I had thought my inability to cope with my sexuality was the reason for my depression, but I am starting to question it. A couple of weeks ago, I came out as bisexual to my girlfriend and my best friend. I figured I would feel better, but I don't. I'm unable to understand it. I don't have a bad life. My friends were very accepting. I've gone through some shit, but who hasn't. Right? For example: Tonight I yelled at my grandmother for needing me to scan and email some documents. I have no idea where it came from! All of a sudden I just got angry. I apologized soon afterward, but personally I'm not sorry. I feel like a horrible grandson. I've thought about therapy, but my income is equal to that of a fruit fly's. Please, I need some advice on how to proceed. :***:
We all have our moods. We may not understand them, but they're there. I know personally half the time I get pissed off I don't know why. But you have to try and get past it. I strongly suggest therapy, I realize you can't afford it but even going to a local youth center or possibly church is good. Or talking to your best friend and explaining how you have no idea why you're acting this way. Sometimes there are things buried in our subconscious that are causing our hormones and chemicals in the brain (I know how repetitive this sounds) to go nuts. We're teenagers, we don't know why. Seeking help, writing, or talking about it are always good ideas. If none of that works, talk to your parents. You don't have to mention you're sexuality, just let them know you're having this issue. Hope that helps =]
I concur with Lizz. Though it could just be a case of mood swings. If you don't typically act that way then maybe you just got a little hot under the collar. I know when I had mood swings as a kid, my mom told me "You're going to take your goddamn meds otherwise I'm ship your ass out." lol I got a little carried away sometimes, breaking, smashing, screaming, thrashing. ^^; Thank god that's out of my system.