Denial? Or just afraid of the truth?

So, it all started back when i was a senior in high school. I noticed that I was always checking out my classmates in gym class when they would shower. I would catch myself looking down there. At the time i thought it was just me comparing myself to other guys. I was never interested in kissing a guy or having a bf, but i was always resisting the temptation to look at their private parts. In college, I was very focused on having sex with women. I dated a few women and had alot of sex, but never was interested in a gf relationship until i met my wife. Fast forward a few years and i meet my wife in college....pretty regular sex life..But, the curiosity surronding men was still there. I couldnt seem to shake it and as time went on..it got more intense. Due to the fact that It wouldnt go away, i began seeking opinions from my wifes female friends about how i came off to them, in regard to my sexuality. That decision would eventually backfire on me..as one of them..who was in our wedding..ended up calling my wife after i had attempted to communicate with her and told her everything i told her. I should note, that over the years..my wife had made little comments and seen things that i am guessing made her wonder..but ultimately i think she chose to ignore it. After my wife got the phone call from her friend..she immediately thought i was gay and trying to leave her..which isnt the case. She was more pissed that i talked to others before her. Which is understandable. I have been in therapy for a while now..and it seems to help..but only makes the confusion more intense. At times, i feel really bi..and other days..straight as an arrow.
I would really appreciate any feedback!