tonight, that I not completely straight, gay, bi, or some messed up thing.....feel so sad, lonely, messed up, ashamed.............
Hey johndeere3020, It's even harder to Come Out when we're still questioning our own sexuality. While it's normal to go through emotional ups and downs after Coming Out, you definitely shouldn't feel ashamed for being honest! How did your brother respond to what you told him?
Excellent! Congratulations! Now you have someone to support you who knows you personally as you take this journey to understand and accept your sexuality.
*big big hugs to JohnDeere3020* My brother was the first to know I was gay, and I still remember the relief as he assured me that nothing changed between us. It might feel bumpy for a while but you're going to look back and see what you've done with a lot of pride. Way to go! *more big hugs* Patrick
Hi Dean, I'm really glad that your brother was accepting of you. Like QuantumReality said, you now have someone you could talk to about this, and who better than your brother. I know how hard it was for you to admit this to him, and you should be proud that you took that step to be vulnerable with him. Every single coming out for me has been me allowing myself, and sometimes forcing myself, to take that leap of faith. Dean, I know that sometimes it seems like you're spinning in circles and getting nowhere, but I can see that you're making progress in this journey, even if it feels like you're stuck sometimes. It took me over two years to fully come out. For you, finding acceptance and discovering who you really are inside are goals that are totally obtainable for you. It does take time, though, so be patient with yourself. We're all proud of you!
