i was totally happy and great nd hyper everything felt great. then idk. i just felt lik a ten ton weight of depression and shame and disghust hit me right dead center in my heart. nd idk wat to do now. i feel lik $#*+ nd i dont want to do anything. i just want to sit and not talk. not move. just sit in silence for the rest of forever. either that or just sleep for all my life. staying in my dreams cuz life sucks to much. nd idk wat happened. i was hyper i was happy nd it all just left. its not here. nothing seems funny nothing seems to b worth it. i dont want to move from this spot. UGH! i hate feeling this way. i hate not being happy. i hate myself for letting my emotions control me. i hate everyone else for not seeing how sad i am. i hate my parents for bringing me into this world of sadness and hate and horribleness. and i hate myself more for making it worse. i hate myself for not knowing wat to do. and i hate everything
That happened to me too. I have anger issues though... I started feeling whorish for some reason and now my mind is back to being empty and blissful....
I Here you.Trust me.....idk if it just a mood that youve been in for a while and its like....not goinng anywhere......mines seems like i am going to be a depperate single gay guy for a VERY long time..... it seems that there is something wrong with me....or im not good enough in god's eyes to be happy. I feel like a love epic failor.im sorry that im not helping honey....its just sad to know that your grieving just like me....alot are grieving for worst...i guess we can only hope for the best!(*hug*)
its nice to kn im not the only one. even tho i dont want anyone to hav to feel this way.ugh. i want to cry my eyes out. but only 2 or 3 tears come out every once in a while. y cant i cry?? nd how can i make myself cry. ugh. my eyes burn so bad
gettting stuck in that state of longing is far from a happy place... but you'll get through it. If you want you can call it a hormonal point... cause everyone gets them. to the OP you are 14... you can chalk it up to puberty if you want. (this likely won't help a lot... but it is a different viewpoint)
I know exactly how you feel (*hug*) Sometimes, the light seems to suddenly snap off and there's no reason why. Could it be a hormonal issue, or has it been going on a while? Have you spoken about it with anyone?