All I've thought about the last few years is my gender and my identity altogether. Looking back on my life, some situations seem to clearly signify dysphoria. I have strong feelings not only regarding my gender, but the personal changes I'd undergone to hide who I wanted to be. I don't trust my memory much, but I do know I have heavy conflicting feelings about my "masculinity" and it significantly affects me every. single. day. I've been dying to get this out to someone. (Not that ya'll aren't enough, but I need someone who I feel knows me on a bit more of a personal level.) Anywho, I'm planning on talking to my friend about it tonight. Here's to hoping I don't chicken out.
Yup, she flaked, never mind. Honestly, now I don't feel like talking to someone about it. I'm hoping, and fairly positive, that I'm feeling this way because I'm disappointed, but it just feels so heavy. *le sigh*
Don't worry. A friend of mine flaked many times before I've had the chance to tell him, which really lowered my confidence. Try again when you've had a time to think about it. Treat yourself to something, it will make you feel better.
Tell us how it goes! I'm older than you and I still haven't found the courage to tell anyone I'm FTM. They just think I'm les.
