im confused

well i dunno what's going on, but im not sure what i am right now (str8, bi, gay, etc.) and it's getting on my last nerve right now. i've always liked girls and had a few crushes while growing up, but now that im a teen, i dunno what i want. eventhough i still like girls and everything, i don't feel the same way my friends do and feel kind of uncomfortable when they talk about girls. it's like all this time i have lost interest in girls :bang: i grew up in an extremely homophobic enviroment where everyone i know says that gay people a disguisting people with sick minds and that they are going to burn in hell, all those things that homophobes make up, personally i dont feel that way, but those thought make things even worse for me. it's kinda hard to grow up the way i feel in a place like this.

to make things even worse, my parents, especially my mom, are very homophobic. they make fun of everyone that acts gay or metrosexually (like guy that tweeze or wax their eyebrows or shave their legs). so talking to them is completely out of the question. my mom even told me that i should never turn gay or else, so that scared the :***: out of me.

i have no idea where to turn to so i can sort things out and finally decide what i am. i would really appreciate any advice and/or help.

thanx

 

thanx 4 the welcome

the thing is that eventhough i know its wrong, i don't know what to do and i'm scared of what might happen.

and something i forgot to say what that to top it all off, i'm gonna go to a new school so i'm gonna be completely alone :icon_sad:

 

my bad oh well

as for being afraid, it might be that i could be gay or bi (still dunno), and if i am i would be afraid of rejection and possible humiliation if anyone ever found out

the thing is that i have been at this school for 10 years, so being the new kid isn't easy. another thing is that my school skipped me a grade and everyone hates the smart kid, even though i'm more of the high B-low A's kinda guy.

and im from PR, so moving to the US is kinda hard

 

thanx, to both of you, 'cause i really don't know what to do and I've been stressing a lot about this. (*hug*)

 

if i am gay or bi, i don't think i should tell them, they wouldn't understand, i know that for sure :bang:

 

no worries, but I don't know why people say stuff like this, cause i saw it and it made me feel like :***:



i believe that God loves everyone the same but it's hard growing up somewhere where everyone is extremely homophobic, both in my neighborhood and school. i'm very confused and actually scared of what can happen. so i dunno if i'll ever be comfortable with what might happen.

 

thanx, btw is the GSA the Gay/Strait Alliance?

 

ok, cause i think the school i'm going to this year has a GSA

 

yeah, but since i don't know the school, i dunno if everyone there is considered gay even if they're supporting straits

 

will do, but the fear is still there :help: