Yesterday had to been one of my worst days of the year so far, so here's what happened (and it's all for a haircut). I walk in, and then my family told me that I had to get a haircut I said no to them, and I been saying that all week. Then my grandma left to the store, and my mother told me I need to get a hairstyle, and then she told me she can cut hair. I told her if I am going to go to get my haircut I am going somewhere to get it done, and I had the money. But no she wanted to get it done there, so I went to my room and lock the door right after she told me I am ugly (not just the haircut but me), and that I look goofy with my hair. So she started banging on my door telling me that she is going to knock it down, then she grabbed the phone acting like she's calling the police. Then I came out, and she hang up (never really calling them), and started crying that I am not nice to her. Then my grandma came home, and we had a huge discussion on how "mean" I am with her, and the bad websites that I go to last year to my grandma which weren't a big deal since we had 4-5 conversations about it already (its porn sites; but weren't coming across gay because it had women in it). So I came up with a bunch of lies to fix that problem up, and still do which I shouldn't a year later. But my mother is far from innocent, since she brings guys home like every 3 weeks, and she's thinking to have naked pictures of herself for money since her friends from work have a porn site. While I never done a thing in my life except porn (which most people do), so she's making me come off like some nasty person saying I have nasty thoughts in my head all the time. I am just sick of it all everyday its the same thing. ----- so then I felt guilty and just want them to stop, so I let her cut my hair to make her happy, and I told her I don't want to do this at all at the chair. Then she tried to act all nice, after that I acted nice, but I just went to sleep... I feel depressed that I lost my hair, and its some ugly haircut. And my grandma is happy, but I feel horrible. I know hair grows back, but I am losing time, it took me 3-4'ish months to get it, now I have to do it all again like I always do. But this time I don't even care what I look like, since I felt like all my rights went out the door. It was either I get this done, or this will carry on to the next day. I am 17, but I have no rights in this house, not even the way how my hair looks. She even wanted me to give my cell phone up to my sister, and getting angry about it. And she wants me to give my room to my brother this Saturday and I sleep in the basement. I don't even know whats her deal anymore.
