What to do now?

hey, if your not ready to tell your parents...I say you don't have to. (and I think we would all agree with that). Obviously, if your mom dod she the page, she is just denying it to herself or maybe she is fine with it and just doesn't want to pressure you...whatever it is, it doesn't mean you would have to tell her yet. And it is very possible she didn't see it too. I had a million different instances where I thought my mom found out...be it having this website left open or my huge involvement in the gay pride stuff "just to support my friends". but when I told her she was completely clueless. ( and don't be too hard on yourself about having the site open...you have to slip up at covering your internet tracks every once in a while.)

and another little tangent.... if your parents made you go to a psychologist (as long as they aren't anti-gay therapists) it might be helpful; some people hate it or find it really scary; and it is scary at the beginning, but I find discussing stuff with someone who is a bit more distant (like a psychologist or another adult) can be really helpful. you don't worry about what they think as much b/c they are not part of the rest of your life...what you say there is kept separate from the rest of your life, but still lets you let all of those thoughts out and can let you play with those concepts and ideas in a safe and nonjudgemental place

 

Well, the obvious first thing to do is: do absolutely nothing for now. Except thoroughly clean your internet and search history so no trace remains of what sites you visited.

As for your mother: There could be several things going on right now:

1) She didn't see at all, or didn't jump to any conclusions. Which means you're clear, and you just need to be more careful in the future when they're around the computer.

2) She did see, but knows you're gay already, and is fine with it: that's good too! If this is the case, then the situation stays as it is: she knows, but won't confront you, and you're free to tell them on your own terms.

3) She saw, and is now planning to confront you about it. This is obviously not what you want. But it could still be that she is accepting after all (even though she might freak out at first).
If she does confront you, it's up to you to decide what to do. If she seems accepting, then maybe it is time to just tell the truth and work from there. If she doesn't seem all that accepting, then you can still just flat-out deny, laugh it off and claim you got there on accident. She might not entirely believe that, but she doesn't have any proof and that way you can hold her off until you live on your own.

The most important thing to do, however, is not to panic. Odds are she was thinking of something different, or not paying attention. Just be a bit more careful what you leave on screen in the future!

 

Filip is dead on. Do nothing! If they bring it up, then you'll have to decide whether you want to use this as an opportunity to start the dialogue with them, or to deny it and say some stupid site directed you there - you lie to them. Both are acceptable responses in my book, including a little white lie if you're not ready to come out yet.

But don't torture yourself about this. Your mind is able to come up with far more imaginative and terrifying scenarios than life itself could ever produce...