Steam Giant

does anyone know if he's okay? i haven't heard from him once since the 29th. we used to talk many times a day and at least check in with how each other has been doing once a day. i thought he was at least okay from our last PM but reading his blog he wrote right after PMing me i am now very, very worried. its very strange that he hasn't contacted me at all even considering his circumstances. :tears: if anyone knows anything else please post it here. i'm sure you are all concerned about his well being as well as I am.

 

:icon_sad: i would have heard if he went back in. if he couldn't tell me he would have had a friend message me right away and i haven't heard anything. i really hope this isn't true but judging that his last blog was about him being suicidal...:tears: i really don't know what else to think. its really bothering me. :tears:

 

i already sent a pm to them but they don't go on here much, i beleive. yeah it is 'steamsfriend'. thanks for the e-mail. i hope i get a reply soon...

 

:tears: seriously i am. please, Dan, tell us your okay!

 

no he always visits to check his pms. thats a long time for me not to hear from him or anyone.

 

its been a week. i haven't heard anything. i hope to God he's just somewhere else safe and sound. even if he's not safe or ok i just want him to be alive. i'm scared. every ten minutes or so throughout school something would make me start thinking about him. i fear the worst. there really is two explainations i can think of. if one is true when i find out will be the happiest day i can remember or ever had. he's just a good as friend of mine as any others. when i think about him i get teary eyed. i just want some answsers. if its bad i wish someone would just tell me already. so i can know instead of wonder. :tears: *seriously* please God i don't know what i'd do if i find out he killed himself. if he didn't but still has died it wouldn't be as bad. suicide is the worst thing i can think of. i hope its soon i get some answers... i just can't continuing functioning like this...:tears: :tears: :tears:

 

i never even thought of calling. i'll definately do that. i'll have to explain to my mom which'll bring me to teats but i have to do it. i tried the e-mails. i won't do the home address unless its absoluelty necissary. i'd have to give them my address to replay. or as i was just thinking i could give my e-mail. unless the computers are indeed broken...

 

although i think its the hardest thing i've ever done i just checked the obituaries, death notices, and funeral notices for Scranton and a little surrounding. Nothing. i sent him another e-mail, and his friend a third one. i hope i get something soon. i remember that sometimes he likes to punish himself and not talk to us. he did that once for a few hours and it freaked me out. so i hope its the computer, or that, or something trivial. it doesn't look like he's died but i'll keep checking every day till he returns just to make sure.