Well, I've finally had the courage to make a topic and ask for some help. I've known that I had 'feelings' for guys since grade 7. The first person I 'experimented' with was my cousin (I know, ew?) but we never did anything sexual so that's a plus. When I was with my ex-girlfriend we never did anything but kiss, etc. I never had the courage to actually have sex with her, and feel like I dissappointed her in some way. When I think about guys I always think that the sex would be akward and uncomfortable (imo). When I grow up and move out I've pictured me and my 'wife' and kids, but when I actually sit down and think about it, I like guys and girls as friends.. but when I'm alone and online at night I always seem to watch Lesbien porn more than gay porn. Basically, if I had the chance (party, birthday etc) to experiment with another guy.. should I? I feel like me being confused and in the closet is what is making me so depressed lately, I just want to be out and happy with who I am but feel like I would make some people disappointed in me if I was gay, my mom has always talked about being a grandmother and I wouldn't want to ruin that chance for her since I'm a only child. What should I do? should I go to counsling and figure it out? I would rather do it over the internet because I'm not that open to anyone IRL. :help: I hope what I wrote up there made sense to someone.. thanks. :help:
if the opportunity comes along for you to be with or just do something with a guy or a girl i say go for it.As for you mom becoming a grandma someday....adopt!
Well, James, from what I see, the real key to identify your true orientation is the romance, k, not the physcial attraction. If you are gay, you can be able to fall in love with a guy rather than enjoy physical need with him or talk bout sexual stuffs with him If you want to experiment a guy, just do it, but I guess it wont determine your sexuality tho, and so is porno And like you told me, dont let all the factors around distract you to chnage who you are, so about your mother, I know you are a good son, but dont becuz of her that force yourself to be a husband to have kids to make her happy. But inside, how you feel? Proud of being a good son, but do you have a great life doing what people want to make them happy? You told me it's YOU who makes teh choice, because it's your life Picturing yourself as being a husband with your "wife" and "kids" is just to make Anyway, i understand how you feel, you are not ready for sex for both sides yet, and through the talk, I might think taht you maybe asexual, BUt maybe you are not ready yet, you'll find out whne you grow up more, but if you have a chance, go for it, try, experiment
