But thats life, you win some and you lose some but at the end of the day it is still

"But that's life, you win some and you lose some but at the end of the day it is still a beautiful thing."


So,
last night was
a terrible, terrible night for me.

Like I've whined about 49387549857 billions times,
it was all about relationship problems.

I got angry, and said stuff I should never say, I know.

But,
I know I'm getting better because today
I woke up and honestly didn't have any negative feelings towards him.

I mean,
sometimes I wish I would have never met him,
but then again, what would have happened if I
learned about people's hidden agenda's from some
other guy other than himself?

Anything bad that's happened in his life was brought upon him by himself, other than natural causes like death, etc.

That's also made me realize that >> I << have control of my life.

Not Cody. Not his boyfriend. Not my parents. Not my best friends. Not ANYONE,
other than myself and God.

He may have broke my heart
and gave me wounds that may
not ever be healed,
but,
he also made me a stronger person.

Life is all uphill from now,
once again.

So, instead of saying
"I hate you Cody" like I did yesterday,
Thank you Cody.

=]

 

Re: But thats life, you win some and you lose some but at the end of the day it is st

thanks guys.

=]

It's hard to look past what I felt for him,
but life I've said,
there's a billion other Codys out there
who'll treat me like a king.

I'm gonna stay solo until college
where hopefully I can find someone mature enough
for me,
and so I can mature enough myself
to handle a relationship and understand when
someone is being real and when someone
is toying with my emotions.