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Ok, don't hang yourself first of all! What are you being admitted to the impatient for?

 

Please, please, don't hang yourself. Whatever you have to go through, even if you have to go inpatient again : it is going to be temporary, death is not.
So please, hold on (*hug*)
If you ever want to talk about it, or anything else by the way, feel free to PM me anytime.
(*hug*) Cécile

 

You do have other choices! Just relax, and maybe tell us why you have previously tried to commit suicide.

 

Then show them that you're willing to get better and that you're willing to get help. A new suicide attempt would be completly counterproductive. It would only show them they are right thinking they can't trust you for taking care of yourself. Show them they can trust you. Show them you can take care of yourself and that you're able to seek for help instead of harming yourself.
You can do this ! (*hug*)(*hug*) Cécile

 

Matt I'm sorry you feel like that but to end the greatest gift you could ever recieve for these reasons isn't worth it. Sure it seems your life has been terrible and what not but try to imagine in 5 years after you work through these issues and you are enjoying life in a new city/town. In that town you have new friends who really care about you. And for the hell of it let's through in a boyfriend for ya and you and him really enjoy being with eachother.

Life sucks and it presents a lot of issues that make us want to just end it all but it is the HOPE for the future that we have that allows us to persevere through life. You have to be truthful with your therapist. Tell them you are seeking help and trying your best but nothing so far has worked BUT you know for certain that being sent back to inpatient will only CAUSE MORE ISSUES! Stress that you know for a fact inpatient will not assist you at all and could infact lead to a successful suicide if they don't take that card off the table. It would be highly unethical for the therapist to keep it on the table if the patient himself said "I will truely hurt myself or others if you send me back".

 

But your parents obviously have good intentions if they want to help you out! They care for you in someway whether you know it or not! And all the replies you've received in this topic, are just some of the people that would be upset if you comitted suicide!

 

And switch the stress of worrying to the pain and anguish of mourning? Stress is a lot more managable than the 5 stages of loss that people can be trapped in FOR YEARS! And yes it truely sounds you were shafted in life so far in your early years but even all those years couldn't of been completely terrible. You had to of made SOME good friends and found SOME good things to enjoy your life so far. To end it now when you are only about 1/4 of the way through would be such a waste. You have 3/4 more of your life you can live AS YOU WANT! Once you are free from your abusive home you can work to pay for your own life and then do with that life as you wish. I don't mean ending it I mean LIVING IT LIKE IT IS MEANT TO BE LIVED!!!

This whole justifying it with saying people would be better off without ya is complete and utter CRAP! You have to realize that only talks you into thinking it is ok to do that. No matter what you will have people miss you. You might not realize how much now but in time you will!

 

Matt, I am terribly sorry that you have been born in an abusive house and that your mother is not listening when you say you don't want to go in inpatient again. But first, it might be her way to show you she cares and maybe she thinks she can't help you in another way, and second, you're not going to be stuck with your parents for the rest of your life.
Many people are born in an abusive house, but fortunatly, they not all hang themselves. Most of them wait for being old enought to live on their own and when that time arrives, they leave their parents house and live according with their own terms.
So whatever you're parents are doing, don't let them waste the rest of your life. There is a life for you after leaving you're parents home, and you don't want to miss it.
I'm sure you can make it until there. Don't give up !
(*hug*) Cécile

 

Please don't kill yourself. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. There is a light at the end of the tunnel...you're just too deep into the tunnel to see it. Things will get better. Progress takes time. It's not going to be from one day to the next. Sometimes it can take months OR years. You're 17. You have your entire life ahead of you. You have no idea what life is going to bring. You have to make it through the rain, stand up once again. Just be strong.

You have to promise us that you won't kill yourself. Going back can help you. Do you think that if you don't go back things will just go away on their own? I can't imagine how hard it must be because I am not in your position...but I have been through the entire suicidal/depression/meds/inpatient ordeal and I can only tell you that suicide is NOT the answer. Things will get better. You just have to hope and believe.

Remember, thunder precedes the sunlight.

 

Here's the thing...killing yourself will not stop people from worrying. Do you understand how much it will affect people? I lost a friend who killed himself in January and it devastated me because we'd known one another for a long time and he was one of the first people I told I was gay. It hurt me a lot, and while I want you to focus on yourself and forget about the other people, you also need to remember they won't just stop worrying if you kill yourself, they'll basically go through hell. As for you, I realize it may feel like nothing is happening, but what you're doing is the best for you. A psychiatrist is doing all this to help you not to hurt you and while it may be annoying you...maybe inpatient is what's needed. It's clear you need people to listen to you and help you so please don't hurt yourself or kill yourself, just please be patient and it will get better.