I really love my job, but I feel like my passion is wrong perceived by others. I'm always excited when I receive a new script, when my other co-workers just groan. I'm always excited to go to a new school and hotel, when my other co-worker just groan. I'm see myself doing this job for awhile, when my other co-workers only just want to do it for a season or two and go find something else. They tell me there's no future in it, wonder why I can be so excited about the touring company and that I need to stop "defining" myself based on the company i'm with. I've also been accused of being too passionate about the job. Too passionate? Is there such a thing?! This is my dream job and others have threw a dagger at me about this being my dream. I am on a four month break off the road, back home with my parents and old friends. I have been trying to enjoy it, because I don't know when I will ever get a four month break again! The owner of the company really likes me, its just my immediate supervisors that don't seem to want to be there. Whenever I call her and ask her something, she gets surprised that I haven't already been told. She was also surprised that this four month break of mine, I didn't agree to and that they made me take it. She told me that they told her I wanted the time off, when I didn't. I feel like I have turned into a tattle tale, indirectly. My immediate supervisors and I were friends when I was on the road, but I have barely talked to them in the last month and a half i've been off. I'm starting to feel awful about the situations and reconsidering if I should go back and fulfill my new contract in January. I love what I do. Perhaps I just need to be a little selfish, stop caring what others think and do what I need to do?! What do you think?
"Selfish" might be too strong a word. Just accept (and be happy) that your attitude is different from theirs. It's presumably a superior attitude, but I wouldn't lord it over them. Just be pleasantly happy. For instance, say a new script comes in. You say "Cool", and everyone else groans. Somebody says "How can you be happy about another script?" Just shrug and say "I dunno. I still find it neat to get a new script. Maybe it'll burn off eventually, but I'm gonna take advantage of the enthusiasm while I've got it." Say it pleasantly with a smile, and they'll presumably let you be. Or when you go to a new hotel or school, just make a bit of a joke at your own expense. "Yep, D2BP is gonna go his never-been-to-this-school tour, as always." "And yes, after checking in, I WILL be wandering around finding the pool, the exercise room, and the business center. " Lex