So basically, I'm 90% sure I am a lesbian. I like girls, that's for sure. But, sometimes I get so nervous that after I come out I am going to meet the absolute perfect man for me and then I am going to have to tell everyone, "oh wait, nevermind." I don't know if this is an irrational fear or not. I just want to be able to fall in love with who I am meant to fall in love with. But, I feel this need to tell people that I like girls because I feel like I am lying to them/hiding from them if I don't. I don't feel like I'm bi though and I don't want to come out as bi.. I definitely like girls and I can appreciate a good looking man but that's all. I don't know what to do. Is it weird to say when you are coming out, "Hey, I'm gay. I like ladies. But, if the perfect man for me comes into my life I'm going to fall in love with who I am meant to fall in love with." When I came out to my mom and sister that's kind of what I said. But, I'm not sure if that's weird or not. This is all so confusing...:icon_sad:
I'm going through the exact thing. I have liked girls since I was 13 but ever since I came out as a lesbian I have been worrying that I might actually fall for a guy because I can still find them attractive (but I don't want to ever sleep with one). Bah. Confusion. BTW. Rachel Maddow is SO CUTE. I adore her.
I am the third person in this situation! I thought I was just a weird one. I dont even find guys attractive though. I constantly look at them to see if "this one" will change it. (I went to the "hot guy" thread and nothing. Not a thing.) Plus the male anatomy, I find it repulsive. Like sick to my stomach repulsive. Yet I have this fear that one day I will find the perfect person who happens to be a man and then just live in a sexless marriage. I am only attracted to a man by their personalities I guess. I have this whole though process on this exact subject that I cant put words to exactly. My best friend and I bicker back and forth about it. She wants me to find the perfect women but I am too afraid to walk out of this closet door.
I'm afraid that I will only find boys to date in school and that people will then think I must be straight and being bi was just a phase. Hello, there are many more straight/bi guys in school than gay/bi girls, so it is statistically more likely that I will go out wiht more boys.
I'm so glad that I'm not the only one in this predicament. I feel exactly the same as you. I think they are cute sometimes but the idea of sleeping with them grosses me out. I guess it kind of just gets to a point where you just have to say, who cares what everyone else thinks. If I one day meet a man I don't find repulsive, I guess I'll just go for it. And, then say well I guess i'm bi or something.. I feel as if no one cares about your own sexuality as much as you do. So if you change it around it's better that you are happy than living a lie. Which would go for either coming out or changing the label. I don't know, this could be the worst idea ever. I'm just rambling now. haha I've been over thinking this wayyy too much lately. And, I have a big crush on Rachel Maddow. She is pretty much my dream woman haha
