So, I've made a lot of really good progress towards self-acceptance in the past few weeks (I'm leaning towards "mostly gay" at this point, if I had to choose a label). But then, a few nights ago, I got hit with this strange dream. I usually don't buy into dreams meaning anything, but I can't stop thinking about this one. Anyway, in the dream, I was telling my ex-girlfriend (who I was in love with and would have married if she hadn't broken up with me) that I was gay. Her reaction was absolutely horrible. However, the dream kept switching between her reaction of me being gay and me and her hooking up. Again, usually I think dismiss dreams (and think they're random neurons firing in your sleep), but I just can't get this one out of my mind. The weeks of progress were shattered overnight (literally) and now I'm really scared to come out again. I think that since I had accepted myself, I thought that others would automatically accept me too. I have a really understanding, liberal family, so I'm fairly confident that it will be no problem for them. But, maybe I was just too optimistic that people would accept me, and now I'm getting scared again. I honestly don't know why I even made this thread. I don't know what other people can tell me, but I just needed to get this off my chest. I feel better now.
Hey I think that this dream shouldn't effect your coming out. You should still be determined to tell people that you're gay/bi whichever you chose. Don't be scared, it's always a gamble with telling others. Hope I helped, Ian