Life is a strange thing, and people are stranger. I guess I'm gay.

I don't know if anyone here remembers my last couple threads, probably not. But anyway, I'm gay. It's kind of funny in retrospect. I ignored the possibility for so long, and then all the sudden it hit me. Being who I am I even came out to family the first time around, and when the obsession faded I was still questioning. My girlfriend got on my ipod and saw all that I had put on here, and ripped the new closet door off again. I'm ignoring her now, I don't think I can talk about it yet. I am an open person, not against anyone. But this identity crisis i've had really changed everything.

I am gay. Seems so ridiculous that I have had such a hard time just realizing it. accepting it never seemed like a big deal. Fuck, I'm gay, who'd have thought it. I guess I just didn't know enough people to know there were guys for me. I met this guy, only briefly, but I knew him. He was sweet, shy, and awkward. But I could read him, I just wish he not only would stay around here, but if only he were gay. Either way, Ive never felt that attraction before, I suppose being awkward and shy doesn't help. I don't know, this will fade, and I will be back down again. But, I am gay.