I've been stuck in this bed for an age, or so it feels. Blankly staring at the walls closing in. Memories halt, but the room keeps it's spin. My gaze must burn, as the wallpaper peels. Hush the voices that drown my thought. Emotion swirls and screams inside, In these feelings I must confide. No outlet for love or pain can be bought. 'Sleeping beauty' she called me today. But where was she as I cried alone, In my room, the cell, as cold as stone? I'm only wanted once I'm far away. A light I felt as darkness came. I thought it too late to cling to life, I wavered on the tip of a knife. I knew there was only me to blame. But the light it grew, like sundered faucet. Spreading wildly through my soul, A warmth I felt where once was cold. The light of you all, of Empty Closets. I'm still in hospital. I'm lonely and scared. I really need a hug. But I can't help but smile. At myself for my foolishness; I should have listened to people's advice on here. But I smile more at how wonderful this community really is. Thank you for being my light when darkness almost took me. I can think of no other place I could call my home. (&&&) I was wondering if anyone has any ideas on how I can keep myself occupied here? I have a laptop for coming on here every so often but the screen hurts my eyes and makes me woozy. Perhaps a little game I could play by myself? Anything really...
Such a beautiful poem! I'll come visit you after work tomorrow, okay? I think you deserve a hug. Keep fighting Jazz. People care about you.
Well as your poem in this thread is so good, perhaps writing some more poetry, only as and when it takes your fancy, but I find it a good outlet. Sometimes if I am really bored I work my way through the alphabet and try and name as many of something starting with that letter as I can, so I might use animals or countries and I start with A and work on through. I also like playing cards when im bored, so there are a few solitaire type games you can play.
Great ideas SilverHalo! I didn't really mean to write a poem, I just started to naturally so I kept going I like the alphabet idea though. Perhaps I can try and learn some magic tricks with cards too! Thanks Amero, I can't wait for a hug. Sorry for what I said to you the other day. I didn't mean it.
Yeah magic tricks sound cool, I always find shuffling a pack of cards somehow therapeutic I have no idea why.
You said that you play a few different instruments. Have you ever tried writing music? I find it can e really helpful and distracting as well, trying to find the right word or note.
sending a huge hug your way!! I have been in the hospital many times and i keep myself occupied with books, cards, puzzles etc... thinking of you!!
Sending imaginary hug right now. (*hug*) Well if your a trouble maker like me then I suggest that you try and find out where they stash the technetium in the hospital that should keep you entertained for a few hours as you try to find a use for it. If thats done maybe you could try and find the place they keep the morphine??? I don't know its just a suggestion.
Wow! You have a talent for writing! If reading hurts your eyes, see if you can get audio books. My best friend had eye surgery and I got her books to listen to when she had to keep her eyes closed for about 3 days. The hospital might even have some to borrow. Have you ever thought about writing? I'd read your stuff!!! Beautiful! If you feel a warm cozy feeling when you read this, it's because I'm hugging you really tightly in my mind!
Big (*hug*) s to you Jazzmyn! I miss you so much! Rest up & get better soon, we all miss you here on EC! (&&&)
