Mood disorders

I have depression and anxiety.

 

Depression isn't a big problem anymore for me though it was for a few years. Now I have really really bad anxiety and am having panic attacks every other day over absolutely nothing. Learning to deal with them though- exercise works wonders on my anxiety.

 

I totally get like this.

I'm definately not bipolar but I have massive, massive mood swings that sometimes I feel I can just not even bear. One minute I'll be dancing around my house singing to Lady Gaga at the top of my lungs, feeling like the top of the world, and the next (triggered by any rather undesirable event, small or large), I'll be lying in my bed crying my eyes out and having major anxiety attacks.

I've heard that people with bipolar disorder have their moods last for days, sometimes even weeks. I can't even imagine!

 

I have been dealing with depression for almost four years now, and all of its effects has caused me many other problems as well. My depression made me isolate myself, and my isolation made me even more depressed. I'm naturally shy to begin with, so the depression and isolation has given me social anxiety and heightened anxiety in general. And having the anxiety makes me want to stay even more isolated. All of these cycles, and many more, just keep going around and around.

I have become extremely irritable, impatient, and short-tempered. I am quick to anger and slow to calm. I used to be so poised and have such a stoic composure. But all my stress and anxiety and sadness has changed my normal disposition. Sometimes I feel like I'm bipolar, too, though I'm not actually. I get fits of anger and rage, and my heart feels like it's going to explode. Other times, I get extremely excited over something simple, and I feel so happy that I'm nearly jumping up and down. Then, if something happens to "ruin" that feeling, I get extremely emotional and will start crying and feel extremely depressed for a while. Then I get into this pensive state where I think about everything that's gone wrong in my life, everything that's bothering me now, and how everything is going to be so bleak in the future.

So yeah, I get how you feel. Maybe I'm even more extreme.

 

my hapiness usually depends on my succes like once i got a D on a test and i didnt talk to anyone for 3 days then i got a B on a science quiz and was soo happy agian

 

I get what you're saying. I'm extremely bi-polar, I was officially diagnosed with it 5 years ago. I've had signs of it all my life. Both my parents are diagnosed bi-polar as well. With bi-polar comes clinical depression, manic depression, and manic outbreaks. I also have critical anxiety, and PTSD. I take medications though, but that doesn't "fix" you. It just makes the roller coaster just a tad bit severe. Although, I still have extreme, sudden mood changes but just less often. It's really hard to cope and live with. One of my biggest pet peeves are when people say "well everyone's bi-polar" actually no, it's a chemical imbalance in the brain, not everyone has it. Sorry, that was a venting moment. Lol

 

Yes. Having highs and lows is a form of bipolar (I believe it's bipolar 2). I would recommend seeing a psychiatrist about it, since we on EC have no means of diagnosing you. Also there is some significance to having another family member with it, though it doesn't have to be everyone. But go see someone about it!

 

Definitely sounds like you are having a possible manic episode...just be careful and try to stay level headed. People are prone to do things they wouldn't usually do when having them, from sleeping around to shopping sprees depending on the severity of the episode.

 

Yes, it's good to see someone. It's not necessarily about interfering with you're life now - you can choose to stick with a therapist, go on meds, drop the therapist, not go on meds, whatever. It's good for you to know what exactly is the situation. Also you want to be preventative before anything gets bad. I really urge you to do so and get proper advice from a health care professional.

 

Having lived with a bi-polar partner for many years I offer this advice: Research the disorder as thoroughly as you can. There are so many aspects of it-fast cycling or not for instance. Left untreated it can play havoc with your life. Know what you're dealing with so you can handle your specifics in the best possible way. Good luck to you.

 

I have OCD and some pretty bad phobias.

 

I think I am bipolar, for two years I have had this "mood" (I cannot explain it, it is not anxeity) early into the "mood" It was almost gone but never quite and it gets worse now and the only thing that dims it is my bf. I simply think I am crazy. the "mood" has driven me to cut and starve myself along with nonending suicduial thoughts and jealousy towards people in general and I have become a social hermit. I am normally a very very nice person but nonstop feeling like this has made somewhat hostile to people as a whole. I have had several "breakdowns" and my mood and taste with music has become more dark and I have taken to songs violent and madding by nature "Run like hell for example" and I have spent many nights simply crying or sometimes I go crazy and break something or I go OCD and clean my room up just to mess it up. I sometimes cry over nothing and sometimes I feel nothing. on a good day I feel nothing

 

I just wanted to point out as well, that there are different kinds of bipolar disorder.

There is bipolar I - which is Charlie Sheen ... extreme example. Extreme hypermanic episodes with extreme depressive episodes.

There is also bipolar II -- typified by hypomanic episodes (which are upswings, but not as extremely manic as bipolar I) and depressive episodes. These can last anywhere from hours, to days, to weeks or months.

Check out the wiki's on it, because they're extremely informative. And this is something completely treatable with medication! Get in to see a medical psychologist. Also, these symptoms start showing up in adolescence and can get progressively worse.

Hope it helps, and we're here to support you! when you're manic AND when you're depressed.

 

I've had four sucide attempts that have somehow failed, but what do you think? I also want to scream for help while refusing it at the same time, I do have a family history of ectreme mood swings but neither of my parents have had it bad. Nothing makes me feel any trace of happiness but my bf