I feel empty.... utterly empty inside at this point... My meds are not helping... Nothing is helping.... I have lost my ability to care about anything at this point... well, anything but my daughter... I'm like a zombie on constant auto-pilot and without seeing where I'm going... I dont think anymore I just do... I'm so lost.... I dont want to keep going like this....
The expression that comes to mind is the 'fake it 'til you make it' one. I'm sure you want to care and you want to feel engaged. So it might take you to start doing something without 'feeling it' and you'll eventually you'll start to feel it. And sometimes when you're in that state you need to do something that makes you physically active and allows you to do things for other people - which kind of gets you out of your own head and gives you a break from worrying about your own problems. Is there a food bank or animal shelter where you could volunteer?
I am a full time student, and full time mom, and I work 3-4 12 hour shifts at the hospital weekly I dont have time to volunteer.... i just feel like im shutting down
Sounds pretty much like a burnout to me, I've been through this myself (already). There is hardly another way out than finding somewhat time for yourself. Could you shift to (no idea what the actual english word would be) half-time-student? most universities have this option. hope you're getting better soon