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Cant forgive myself

Discussion in 'Coming Out Advice' started by UncertainHopes, Apr 25, 2012.

  1. UncertainHopes

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    I want to break down right now, im soo stupid.

    So the story goes... I had drama first period and my friend s was sitting alone, i just finished going over my script and wanted to talk to her so i go up behind s and i was going to her hair in her face and i lightly flinged it and it came off, I was shocked and scurried to give it bqck to her, she stormed out and i tried to follow her, she told me to f off and she hates me. My other friend c texts her and ask if shes okay, not alot of people seen what had happened so thats fortunate. So i text s on my friends phone and write a long ass message saying how wrong that was to do and i undertand if she nver talks to me again. My c sees me upset and tries texting her convincing her to forgive me. So at this point i ditch class to go cry because how stupid i was and that she didnt deserve this. So second period comes and my friend sees me rushin out of there with watery eyes and comforts me before i head to math. So during second period my friend s who i embarassed came annd told me how sorry she was for blowing it out of proportion and that i shouldnt forgive her. But my friend c is mad at her for making t bigger than it was and is now not talking to s. but i feel s still hasnt forgiven me because this is the second time she got humiliated in drama, which is a whole other sotry, i feel less than human right now...:bang::tears::eusa_doh:
     
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    Its npt gping to help anyone if you keep feeling really bad about what happened, especially if she forgave you. I think the best thing for you to do is to try to be a supportive friend, and to be more careful in the future. Hating yourself won't get you anywhere, and it will hurt your friendship with her.
     
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    Listen -- it's okay. She already forgave you and it's best to just let it go. It was only a mistake and you didn't know. Hating yourself about it will only make the situation worse. Just try to forget about it -- because you didn't know and it's not your fault.
     
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    My friend C is mad at her for making me cry. It just makes me feel at fault for the whole thing. :/
     
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    I've read this like five times and I still can't understand what you did...
     
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    My understanding of it is that her friend has a wig.

    UncertainHopes, she forgave you, and that's what matters. Why are you worried about what C thinks? That's C's problem, not yours.
     
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    She had a weave that when i flung it it came off and i tried to give it back and apologize


    But the two are talking again and i just came out to the both of them :slight_smile:

    I still feel awful about it Though