This is not strictly LGBT related, but it ties in to it. I have posted about some of my issues with my father. For those of you who don't remember, here it is: For a time, I believed that my father had drugged and raped me in my sleep. I also found out that he watched extremely violent pornography almost exclusively when I was in the house. I was also able to conclude that the least he did to me was occasionally take my shorts off in my sleep. I believed that those things had an effect on me being gay, and I was concerned that if I made my peace with what happened, that I wouldn't...be gay anymore, I guess. So, I was willing to walk around with all that hurt for the rest of my life. But, a few minutes ago, an epiphany crashed over me like a tidal wave. It doesn't matter what my dad did to me. I mean, it matters, but...I can't change it, and it didn't change me. I've always been this way, and I always will be. I've always felt that I could only make my peace with it if my dad came clean, but he's never going to do that, and he shouldn't still have that much control over my life. This epiphany moved me to tears, and literally brought me to my knees. I just wanted to share this with all of you because you all helped me deal with it. Your encouragement and advice mean more than you'll ever know. Thank you. ride: (&&&) ride:
Wow, that's just wow. I feel so sorry that has happened to you, especially for a family member but I'm so happy and proud that you feel he has no control of you anymore. Really fantastic.(*hug*)
I can relate, when I was 14 I was molested by my uncle, a man I trusted and would go to for advice because I was scared to tell my dad anything (he was really strict). After that I became really werid around men, I find kissing a man replusing, getting to close to one causes anxiety. I'm in a questioning phase right now. I don't think it had any direct link to how I feel about women now. But I do think it effected how I see men. I am still sexually and emotionally attracted to men, but when it comes to them loving me and wanting to be romantic I can't handle it, it makes me sick. I find it really difficult to stay in love with a man. Glad you made peace with it and are feeling better =)
That's awesome. I'm so glad that all this came to you. I'm really, genuinely happy for you! You're quite an inspiration to me. And, you're right, you are who you are.
I am so sorry this happened to you. I have been lucky enough to be blessed with a loving family that is nothing like this, so it really makes me thankful. You are such a strong woman, stronger than most. You make the LGBT community proud hon :eusa_clap
