When you've finally realized that you might gay have you thought back to points in life and thought "Oh yeah, that was kind of a sign" With me I remember looking at shirtless guys on tv shows but never thought anything of it. Trying to look at guys in the changing rooms (Obviously making look as like an accident) but then again that could have been down to just teenager curiosity, I dunno. I remember one time when I was at a friend house and carrying on doing daft stuff and I put my hand on his crotch:icon_redf but just brushed it off as exactly that "an accident" Anyone else have similar or different things
Well, I played with Tonka trucks when I was little Come to think of it, I actually miss them. I had this nice big one that I could sit on and use (although I could probably still fit on it >.> ). It was so much better, and more used, than the little things my sisters ended up with XD Course, this isn't referring to me being gay, but trans, but hey, it's a sign
I kissed a girl in third grade (on the cheek) that I didn't even know because I was bored. :icon_redf Upon entering middle school I also gained a habit of glancing at other girls up and down in the locker rooms. Later that year I finally started questioning.
I definitely did all of the things you mentioned! It's just always been there really, the attraction, the feeling, I've known pretty much all of my life, denied it for a long time. As for clues, I used to dream about doing 'things' with guys, but to make me feel less guilty I used to incorporate a girl too, she got no attention. On holidays (vacations, for American folk) I used to like lay back in the pool, checking out guys abs. This is pretty scary considering how young I was...
I feel like I've been in denial for years now that I've (kinda) accepted it. Before I was old enough to have any sort of sexual interests, like, at age 5 and 6 and whatnot, I was obsessed with the bodies of women. All the anatomy books I read (science books were some of the first things I read) had me knowing everything about sex before I was in 3rd grade. At least, all the technical parts (I learned all the emotional crap in 4th grade). It wasn't long before I found out I liked the OUTSIDE of women even better. In retrospect, looking through sports magazines for swimsuit models and Maxim and enjoying the view was a pretty clear sign I wasn't completely straight. Men didn't interest me as much, unless they were superheroes, cops, firemen, insane or geniuses. I DID think some men were hot, but none of them turned me on the way women did, and I felt like a bad person because of it. I tried imagining myself with a man. It never went past a romantic date and a kiss. So I pretended to be the guy and it went muuuuuuch farther. But I was worried thinking like that would make me gay, so I ignored it for years. When I met my current girlfriend, it all came flooding back. Once she, the only person I've ever felt completely "safe" with, and I were on ******. She flashed the camera, I suddenly felt the urge to tackle her to the couch. Then we were reading the written version of gay porn together, we always playfully bickered, we used pet names, flirted, held hands, etc. I figured something was off when I felt an achey, terrible feeling when she left for college. I had never felt like that before, so I pushed it a bit to see where it went. I mean, we already acted like a couple, might as well make it official. A few weeks after telling her I loved her, it occurred to me that I wasn't straight. And I'm starting to accept the fact that I'm not going to be able to make myself like guys in a sexual way. Ever.... gah.
This is something I'd wondered about myself, since it was a long time before I really started to wonder if I was gay [though I secretly assumed I was something like straight-leaning bisexual for awhile, from sometime in high school and most of my time in college.] Not sure if this counts, and might sound slightly odd if not embarrassing, but I remember while I was either in HS or within my first year or so of college, I was still living at home, I was watching a movie in the downstairs family room called Imagine Me & You and while it was about a romance between two beautiful women, I don't recall thinking, "Wow, they're hot, I hope they do it" but something more along the lines of, "D'Awwwwww" most of the time. Something tells me a straight guy, or at least most, wouldn't do that. :lol:
Up until around 12, I never did anything that would seem "gay." Nothing weirder than any kid would do, after that I was still confused but I figured I liked boys. Then that was confirmed around 14. I seem to have had an easy time with my sexuality. I never had denials, and never seemed to get any different treatment, at least not noticable. Sure there were some guys who'd make fun of me and all, but other than that anything involving me being a homosexual was straight forward. Aside from flirty/intimate things with guys, I still don't do anything that would come off as gay. Most people are really surprised and in some sort of denial when they find out I like dudes.
I'm sort of similar (Well except I like guys), see there I go again so is pretty obvious I'm not 100% straight otherwise I wouldn't have just said what i just said. Anyways back to what I was going to say. I used to think that if I met a guy then things would become much clearer but as other people have told me: 1) it would be difficult anyway cuz i'm not out:rolle: 2) it wouldn't fair on the other guy 3) it might not solve my problems and just cause more:rolle: Thanks for your POV.
I should have known... I had liked some guys in middle school, but not in the same way that I liked women. I just thought that it was normal for everybody to like everybody then. I did not know about LGBT people at this time. I also was always more masculine growing up. I would always play with the boys instead of the girls. But that's referring to me being pangender.
I remember in like PRESCHOOL having this one daydream about an older me being with a guy rather than a girl. PRESCHOOL. We start early.
Yes. Biggest cue I managed to miss was when I met the guy who now is my best friend. At the time, almost 3 years ago, I didn't know I was gay yet. The moment I first saw him I was thinking "damn he's hot" but STILL I didn't realise I wasn't as straight as I thought back then... The epiphany didn't come until 1,5 years later.
