I seriously need some advice, I think I'm going into a depression I'm 16, in the 10th grade and I'm really confused with who I am. It's really starting to take a toll on me. I'm confused with my sexuality, am I gay? bi? straight?.. I haven't dated either sex because of this confusion, I remember dating a few girls in my younger days when I was about 10-13 but that's it. My problem is whenever I think about having sex with girls it never gets me aroused, I look at girls and in my head I'm like wow she's pretty but I never take things to the next step because of this confusion I'm having. I then tried to watch straight porn to see if that would get me aroused and it didn't either. When I think about having sex with guys, its the same thing. So its almost like neither sex turns me on. There's one thing that turns me on however, and its my fetish called flatuophilia(I've had it since I was really young), I get turned on when I think about a guy farting on me, weird I know but I can't help it. I watch fart fetish videos all the time because thats all that really turns me on. I'm afraid that this fetish is leaning me more towards guys, ever since I've had this fetish I've been looking up male asses imaging them farting on me, I've been texting males with the same fetish as me 24/7. I imagine guys who I think are cute in my high school farting on me. It's starting to become a never ending cycle and I thinks this fetish is taking over my life and keeping me distant from girls. Then to add to all the confusion I'm having, I've had/have a lot of ppl in school who thinks/thought I'm gay(from the way I talk?) And it always makes me wonder am I really gay?. With me being confused with who I am I also keep myself very distant from people, I only have a few a friends, I barley go outside, I'm usually quiet and keep things to myself, I barley try and meet new ppl because I'm afraid if I do they'll judge me and what's the use of getting to know someone if you don't even know who you truly are?. Then to add more confusion, my parents are also starting to question me(not my sexuality) but basically why I'm always in the house.. my dad always says things like "wassup with you and the girls?" 'Why don't you have a girlfriend?" 'When are gonna go out and have fun?". Sorry for rambling on and on, but some great advice would be greatly appreciated :/ thanks
You fetish is rather strange but not all that shocking. I bet if you were to get inside the thoughts of your classmates you would see that a lot of then have weird fetishes too. I suggest you not worry too much about your fetish and concentrate on your studies and figuring out what you want to do with your life after high school. Also, it sounds like you might be gay because you are not aroused at all by girls, but possibly you could be straight except for the fetish, or you could be bi or asexual. Anyways, when you are older there will be plenty of time to figure it out, but at 16 its not that pressing an issue. Not to say you should repress your thoughts, just don't get obsessed. Think about it, let it go, and move on with your life.
