I've completely lost interest in everything. I have no fascination with anything. My girlfriend is worried about me. I think I'm clinically depressed. I've been feeling this way for a while. Before that, I was obsessed with anything sexual, I would constantly ask my girlfriend if we could have sex. I watched porn. I had sexual fantasies about women, 3 dimensional AND 2 dimensional. My favourite food was Frank's Red Hot Sauce. My favourite weather was sunny. I loved yaoi. Now, none of it seems fascinating. I don't feel like a gender. I don't feel any attraction to anyone, whether it be romantic or sexual. My favourite colour is grey and everything in my life seems black and white. I have no will to do anything except sleep and cut myself. I have no courage to cut, so now I just want to cry myself to sleep. I have no worth and my family hates me. I don't know what to do. I hate myself. I always cut myself because my parents don't think I'm good enough and because I've been bullied since I was eight. I don't see a reason my girlfriend can love me. Nobody wants a girl with ugly scars. I have no will to live and no courage to die. What do I do?
Don't give up. You may not know it right now, but a lot of people do care about you. I used to be in the same boat as you. You should see a psychitrist so they can help you and give you medicine to regulate the stuff in your head so you won't get depressed. I know it may seem like it never will, but it WILL get better. Hang in there. I'm here to talk if you ever need to. Also, hurting yourself is never the answer. Focus on something else for awhile, I know it's hard, but focus on doing stuff and pushing everything bad out of your mind. A friend of mine once told me that running helped her. Stay strong. (*hug*)
thank you for the support. i just don't know why people care so much. nothing seems so interesting and i feel like everyone would be better off if i had died. but i can't find the courage to do it. as i type this, i'm breaking down and pinching my stomach and crying my heart out. it makes me almost smile to know that there are people that i can talk to. thank you. xx
Hey, don't give up! Find a new hobby or talk to a friend of yours or to us We are here to help you out of this situation you are in. Even if it sucks now, it will get better one day, right? Try to regain your interest in those things you mentioned and don't cut yourself! Talk to people and everything will be better soon, I promise! Just try doing things you used to like, even if that bothers you now, try it and hopefully you will get interested in them again. Good luck and one big hug for you! (*hug*)
