I'm done. It was my idea I admit that, and I regret it. Yesterday my boyfriend and I were in the woods and he reached for my boob jokingly. I swatted his hand away and said: "Only if we were still going out." Because at the time we weren't. He asked: "Wanna go out?" I said: "Sure." My boyfriend and I both agreed on boundaries and everything else, saying that if one of us got too uncomfortable then we would stop. We agreed on touching and so we did it. (We went back to his house.) I'm not going to get graphic. At the time I was like: "Okay, this is okay, I can do this." I touched him and he touched me. When it was over I insistently regretted it. I took off my shirt with him. I still regret it and I feel terrible. I wasn't ready, and I shouldn't have done it. I want to break up. I'm not in love with him. I think I was just curious, hormonal, and horny. In fact I like someone else. I'm a terrible person. What do I do now?
Okay, first of all you're not a terrible person. Experimentation is both common and normal for both gay and straight people. You did nothing wrong or dirty, but yes hormones likely played a large factor in what happened. Trust me, I've been there before. As for what you do now? Be honest. Tell him that you wish you hadn't gone as far as you did, that you were hormonal and horny, and that you think it is best that you see other people. Take his feelings into consideration and let him down gently, but don't compromise what feels right for you. You have a right to say no, a right to set boundaries that you're comfortable with, and you don't have to date or see anyone that you don't want too.
Thank you so much. You have no idea how much what you just said meant to me. Thank you for giving me such great advice, and it is nice to know I'm not the only one who has felt this way before. I should break up with him, clear-cut and honest, even though we started going out yesterday. I shouldn't be with someone if it doesn't make me happy. Thank you very much. (*hug*)
Of course. I'm happy to help. (*hug*) I've definitely been in your shoes before, as have so many other people. Unfortunately, one way or another, someone always gets hurt, and the truth always comes out in the end. So, being honest is the best policy - it still hurts, but it avoids making things harder than they need to be. Plus, being honest is liberating for you. What you're going through, what you're learning, it's just part of growing up. So, don't beat up on yourself. Almost everyone goes through what you're going through at one point or another in their lives. (*hug*)
