I can't seem to figure this out and when I stop obsessing about this shit my feelings for men come back. but then something will trigger the thoughts and I'll be back obsessing again. I need to find an answer. So yea, I'm turned on by seeing a woman's vagina, but something I like has to be being done to it to totally turn me on. I don't find specific women attractive like I do with men, its more like we connect, cool, she has a vagina, great. If she is pretty I start comparing myself to her, so I start to think of myself as a boyish female and get urges to start dressing in baggy male clothes and need to chop off my hair. When I'm with my husband I dress all girly and like it. Straight porn has started to actually turn me off now, I don't like seeing the guy there anymore. Now its more like I get off thinking about how a girl feels masturbating or I think of myself masturbating/seeing myself naked turns me on. I just can't do this with men anymore, its not working, i can't find a lasting connection with them. Its a game, I either like them or they like me. So I'm going to try the other side...the only problem is that I don't really want to have sex with a woman and i'm not attracted to specific women. I really really thought I wanted to be with my best friend as I want to be her only friend and we connect, but it would be so weird to have sex with her, I see her naked all the time it doesn't do anything. And she's was what really started the thoughts. Can't I just live with her but have sex with men (a man's body does not turn me on physically, but mentally they are hot and being touched by strong arms is sexy)
