My friend is asking me what's up. About a month ago, when I broke up with my girlfriend, she helped me alot, she helped me gather the courage to do it. She was there for me. And when I did, I was about to tell her I was gay, But I chickened out, Mostly because I am still figuring out if I am Bi or not. And ever since she will occasionally ask what I was about to tell her. After I chickened out, I told her that I was extremely sorry and I would tell her eventually. But I'm still figuring it all out. And I can I am upsetting her, because I usually tell her everything. I told her not to worry about me and be patient. But she is worried about me. I don't know if I should tell her or not. Another factor holding me back is that she is VERY christian. She is tolerant, and kind, and has gay/Bi friends, but still... I don't want to ruin our friendship, I don't know for sure that it will, I also feel guilty that I have told three other people before her. This is giving me more stress about everything right now. I just, I want to tell her, but I don't know that I should, I'm trying to trust my gut, but my gut is just been tense for the past month I can't feel what is right, I just feel like sleeping all day and shutting everything out. Will telling more people help me accept myself? Or will it make me feel worse? I don't understand myself now much less what to do. What do you think?
If she has gay/bi friends then it shows that she has no problem with it so I think you should tell her. If anything it would probably strengthen your relationship because you trust her enough to tell her such an important secret. I guess telling more people can help you to accept yourself (only if they accept you of course) because it means you have more people to rely on for support.
