This is about a relationship. An important relationship. A relationship that I have always had... But really more self-centered relationship revolving around me and my commitments to myself. Some of these may include: trying to study more then 2 days in advance for midterms/finals even though I begin to, and plan to study 1 month in advance and try really REALLY hard to start within 2 weeks; trying to get typical life stuff done such as getting a hair cut, donating blood, or renewing my car insurance; or something like trying to stay committed to a sight such as this site, and others, and post/read/visit regularly, without taping off abruptly into the inevitable road of non-existence. Well I will be taking steps in the right direction, and will see if I will make it so that I can get over this hump and do what I want to do. This is one. Why must I get so anxious and keep avoiding even the most little of things... God, why am I so good at finding loopholes and doing this... Life... I think this might be classified as a rant, and so be it if it is, but advice is also appreciated, although I know that only I can change my life, I can still see how others live and choose that way if it is my preference. My apologies that this may not make complete sense, since this is mostly a mind dump and self-therapy that I am doing to myself, but I hope that others may take some positivity from this in some unique fashion... My mind is also not working at optimal capacity due to distractions... Love to all of creation.
I recognize a lot of what you're describing. I always leave things till the last minute, and sometimes until it's too late. I give advice freely about planning things properly to avoid panic, but it's a case of "Do as I say and not as I do" i'm such a hypocrite! If it's any consolation at all - you are not alone! (There is wood outside just waiting for me to turn it into shelves - I said I'd do it today, but it's sooooooooooooo nice here on EC) :icon_bigg :smilewave
