Problem with best friend

Hey everyone,
i found this forum today and I think maybe someone here can resolve my problem or give me some advices. Ah, on the start - sorry for my english language, it's can be worst thing you ever see (I'm still learning :3).

So, uh, in big shortcut - I'm in love (almost one year) in my best friend, duh. And I don't know if he feel this same way to me.

A problem is here: this ruining my life. I can only be focused on him and I can do everything for him. Exercise: he lives something about 230km from me and i sold maaany things for possibility travel to him (I know he likes when I spending time with him). This isn't working in back way because he lives in large city - and I'm living in poor village. He came to me once for a few days and we spent all the time great doing many cool things (stricte friend things). And he was sad when he had to return to his city.

And, what is huge problem, i don't know he is bi or gay or straight. He don't tell me this simply. Some days ago he "Likes" on FB some of hm, erotic picture (female) art and I ask him he likes this kind of stuff. He said "Yes" and I said I have couple of them on PC. He please me to show him and (apart from the fact that the twisting and said that he is ashamed of something else) I show him. But, i show him a gay arts (It's "arts" because uhm, it's not normal porn, lol, dont ask, please ) and he said "I like it, this is nice". Next he told me he like to watch from time to time a yaoi and send me a link to what he like mostly and it's a hard gay sex, lol. We talked some about this type of art. But after this he said: "But, for that matter, I prefer girls, but that's because I was so raised in my home".

A few times he send me a random signals that... he going to masturbate. But it's a very special signals, he pokes me what telling me "I'm going to do this now". I dont know what to think about this, this is so weird.

Next thing: he told me, he never will never have a girlfriend because he don't want. I dont know he have on mine all of this type "relationships" or only girls.

And one thing, he don't likes hugs . I want to hug him (but i never ask directly, gawdh, i'm very shy guy) but he tell me a once: "He can't hug me because he just don't like ". But I dont know he was sarcastic or something. I remember on the start our friendship he likes to ask me (but only via internet :/) "Can I hug You?" and in one moment he changed in this and i dont know why.

In two weeks i have chance to tell him about my feelings when we going to artist meet for six days. Can you tell me how i can survive this?