Hey, Well the story is that I have been convinced that I was straight all my life, up until recently. I have never thought of male relationships as disgusting, I have always shown that, but in the last year, I have started thinking more about guys. Like over time I have started to become more and more open to the thought of being in a gay relationship, it has now reached the point where I know if a situation arises where a guy wants to kiss or proceed further with me I would openly let them. However, I am also still wanting to be in a relationship with a female and hopefully in the future settle down and have kids and grow old and stuff. I am just confused, I can't talk to anyone abut it because I know it will make things awkward between the few people close enough to talk to about it. I just need some help.
Could you see yourself marrying a man, or even being in a relationship with one? If not, I don't think you're gay or bi, I think you're just curious. But if you want sexual relations and a relationship with a man you could be bi. I wouldn't say gay since you want to be with women too. Good luck. (*hug*)
Yes, I could see myself in a relationship with a man and even marrying one (If Julia Gillard would hurry up and allow gay marriage). Thanks for the advice, I will let this just play out naturally for a while and who knows what will happen.
It really seems to me more like a man might be what you really want, while a woman is what you think you should want. Or at least, you want to be with a man for sexual or romantic reasons, and your reasons for wanting a relationship with a woman are more about wanting to have the life that your culture teaches you you're 'supposed' to have. Does that seem possible? Because when you describe wanting to be with a man, you talk about kissing him and allude to having sex, but when you talk about a relationship with a woman, it doesn't seem to be about her at all, but rather about "having kids" and "settling down."
Yes that does seem plausible. I did grow up with the whole idea that being gay was a taboo topic. My future to me is to find someone that I love, whether they be male or female, to get married have kids and grow old and die together. I also know that if I did turn out to be gay/bi that I would lose some of my close guy friends as I know they would find it to weird to still hang out with me. This is not helping me when thinking about the overall situation. Hopefully in the near future a chance will arrive with the opposite sex and I will truly be able to determine my feelings on this matter.
