Ever since I was born (Male) I felt like I was in the wrong body, its not that I wanted to be born a Female, I just never felt right, like I was living someone else's life through their body. I am a Adopted only child, and have struggle with Depression for as long as I could remember. I always hated how I looked, being heavyset, ugly, and awkward, there was nothing about myself that I liked, and to this day I still can't find anything to be content with. I have attempted to take my own life a few times before, but I am unsure if I am Depressed / Suicidal because I am confused about myself or that I just hate life so much. I hold such anger towards Men in general, i find them to be jerks, douches, assholes , egotistical, and can't stand most of them on sight. I do have a few Male friends I get along with, and I know not all Men are the same but its the general public I cant stand. I love Women, have been surronded by them all my life, jokingly being raised by three moms; Adoptive Mother, Aunt, Grandmother. I think woman are beauitful and sexy and I get arroused by them, but I find many Males to be very cute and handsome and could pitcure myself making out with them ( Which is something I have never done before, nor with a Woman). I watch and masturbate to "Vanilla" Porn, but I always feel guilty afterwards. I have joked with a few people that I know, that I am a Lesbian born inside a Man's body, I dress and I guess act like a man, but I am not sure if its just my upbringing being raised a strict certin way or the way Society is, but I know for certin that I do not like being called or considerd a Man or Male and have been seriously thinking I may be truley Transgender. Sorry for this being long, but can anyone offer some insight? I am just so confused with myself.
hello there, I sort of not really know what you feel. See I sort of feel like a man's body or woman i wouldn't care and it gets a bit frustrating of not feeling like the gender you are and the gender your not. But I feel fine as a male not discomfort or loving it. Now you don't have to take my perspective but maybe its worth talking to someone to help you sort out whats going in your head. A gay friendly doctor is always a good choice. Take care.
I've always felt like I had a man's brain and I've always felt an attraction towards gay men. I am engaged to a male and I've recently discovered I'm bisexual, had a gay snog. Life is complicated, we are what we are and what we feel. It's the truth. I found hanging out with like-minded people helped.
