Afraid it's just a phase

[Fallible]

Well, here's the deal. I am biologically female. I sometimes feel like I'm a guy on the inside. But alas, a twist: I sometimes feel like a girl stuck in a guy's body, too. Even though I'm in a girl's body. Gah, this is so confusing. I think this is dysphoria, but I'm not sure exactly. I identify as male, even though I still sometimes feel like a girl. Actually, I've been questioning whether or not I actually feel female sometimes, I think I might just be a feminine guy. When I wear makeup and wear girl's clothing, it feels like I'm crossdressing, but I still like it. So basically I'm unsure of whether or not I'm just a butch chick who sometimes likes to wear makeup or a femme guy. It's just that I'm stuck on being a guy, I WANT to be a guy. But I'm not sure just whether or not I'm just trying to be a special snowflake or if I'm really transgender. I've bound my breasts and it feels right sometimes, others not so much. I still continue to wear makeup, actually I just started wearing makeup (and lash stain is the BOMB xD). So ugh, sorry if this is all jumbled and what-not, I just kinda needed to vent and I wanted to know other people's input on the matter.

You could just want to be a feminine guy. What is it that makes you feel like being a guy is right to you? Do you like looking feminine but acting more masculine, because maybe that's all it is. Maybe you just want to keep that feminine style and look but yet be masculine as far as personality? You don't really have to figure out what the correct term would be for it all though, as long as you do what makes you happy, that's all that matters.

[Fallible]

The biggest reason I want to present as male is because it just feels right. I love being referred to with male pronouns and I dislike being referred to with female ones. I've recently asked my friend to use male pronouns on me from now on, and she agreed, although she slips up a lot.. but it's all good. The pronoun thing is a big sign to me that I may be transgender though I'm still questioning.. It's just I'm not sure whether I actually feel like a girl or not sometimes because of the whole makeup thing. Maybe I am just a feminine guy.. I have no idea!

[The Spark]

You sound like a feminine guy to me, based on the fact that you've said more than anything that being a male feels most right; especially considering the pronoun thing.