Everything is breaking, and is on the cusp of falling apart.

Wow, my life went from calm to "AHHHHH PANIC" pretty fast.


Some backstory: about a year and a half ago I moved out of home for the first time, and found out quickly I was really out of my depth. I could barely afford anything, half the time had to delay rent payments, had to cancel my cell phone, it was bad.

I came back home after 7 months, embarrassed but determined to get back out ASAP.

And now I've been back with my mom for almost 10 months and I'm MISERABLE.

Why? My mom retired at the end of May, and since then has turned into the dragon lady. She will not let us use the dryer during the summer months, and gave me absolute hell recently for using it for TWENTY minutes to dry my pants the rest of the way. She gives me a hard time about what i'm eating if she doesn't approve of it, and bites my head off if I don't wipe down the kitchen counters after i finish cooking, even if I didn't use them. If we go over on our max uploads for the internet, it's automatically my fault.

My brothers insult me constantly (theyre both younger) think its okay to get into fights with me physically, and ignore everything I have to say.

I am severely depressed because of the whole Transgender issues to begin with, and all of this is heavily adding to my depression. I try to stay out as long as possible after work to avoid going home, and when I am home I hide in my bedroom and study frequently, just to avoid my family.

I've also hit the point with my mom where she's frequently threatening to do it, but says "i'm not allowed to move out" until I pay off my debt to her, which is almost at 1000$.

I'm at the point now that I need to move out. I'm looking for a second job, and an apartment. This time I cannot move back home, and I don't think my mom will let me once I tell her how I really feel. I keep dreading family functions because I don't want to even be in the same room as her.

Any suggestions on moving out quickly without digging myself into a hole?